i still feel in some way that i did something wrong to cause my Dad to leave when I was 8. intellectually, I know it wasn't me but every once in awhile that sneaking suspicion still comes up when I am around him. I still try to make it up to him. it seems so ridiculous and embarrassing to admit it. I hope that I can just let this go finally. I never thought this would continue to bother me for so long, I'm 30.
